Self-Love: The Very First Romance

“I Lost Myself Loving You Savagely
Just To End Up Wishing You Would Do The Same.
But Oh What A Joy I Had When I Started Loving Self
As Much As I Loved You.
I Am Forever Grateful;”


After a setback in life many individuals turn to religion, addiction and everything in between. I was no exception. After being in a relationship for seven years we parted ways. To soothe the pain, the very first thing I did was dust off my bible and pray to God to take the pain away. But I guess God was busy blessing those who liked his pictures and typed amen on Facebook. I thought maybe Allah might have some time for me, so I researched the Islam, bought some books and talked to my muslim friends to gain more informtumblr_m8tjpoZobQ1qj4qcqo1_250ation on the matter, because a GOD HAS to help me. A couple of months into it, I stored away all the books because nothing was working in my favor. I noticed that the pain and sorrow was still there and that I must become my own hero in order to go on with my life, without him. Somehow I knew a stronger me was within, but I didn’t know how to get in touch with her, well atleast not at first.



On a christmas eve heading home after a family dinner I was done with the self-pity and chuman-brain-potentialalled a long time “I-see-you-when-I-see-you” friend. She was hanging out with some friends and invited me over. That was such a convivial gathering, they conversed about life, spirituality and the universe. That was my first time hearing about spirituality not being related to religion. This was the most serendipitous moment of my life. It was the first time hanging out with these amazing individuals and it was surely not the last, they later  became family. It was here where my journey, looking for self, started. It was here where I discovered the powers of one’s mind and the the ability to mindfully influence every situation in our lives.



The focus was on me, the aim was to heal and better self. This was the perfect timing to analyze my whole existence on this earth. It was my time to choose what I wanted to do with my life and who I wanted to be. But first I had to know who I was, what my weaknesses and my strengths are. It was the time to put my ego aside and deal with all the emotions I cried and ate away. After years of dealing with overweight, drinking shakes and only eating a certain amount of calories a day, I was done with temporary solutions. I changed my eating habits and added more greens to my meals, which resulted in the loss of a considerable amount of weight. In the mean time I was growing and healing spiritually. I was aware that a healthy mind goes hand in hand with a healthy body.“When the ears of the student are ready to hear, then cometh the lips to fill them with Wisdom.”–The Kybalion. When I was ready the lips surely appeared, I met an exceptional being, Razi’El Muntasir. He is a Vegan Chef, Healer and Spiritual Guide. He introduced me to the vegan lifestyle and I embraced it wholeheartedly. He has been vegan for more than half of his life and helped others get rid of ailments such as diabetes, leukaemia and much more. In my transition from omnivore to vegan he was a great guide.


By sharing this with you I want you to know that after every setback there are a million ways to do things. It is  the time to pull back from everything and analyze what went wrong and how to position yourself back in life. When you are determined to do better, the right individuals will appear in your life in the most mystical ways. It is and will always be YOU that needs to love you FIRST. Love yourself so fiercely so others can see how to love you. Do only what’s best for you! The only way to know what is truly good for you is by looking around you and seeing how many individuals you’ve inspired and how many are benefiting from your light.  It’s a contagious way of life and thinking.

Love & Light,









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